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Friday, October 31, 2008
Guy or Girl?
I've never been a gender confuse as long as I've remembered. Other than games, it's always been rather apparent of my gender. Just yesterday, as I exited the school building towards the parking lot, I heard my name being called. So I turned around to see JL grinning happily at me. JL's not a very liked person in our school--he's the only one who tucks in his shirt, rude and annoying, and think's he's all that.
'This guy wants to know if you're a guy or girl.'
I stared at his companion with surprise. What? I didn't know how to respond. But I stared as the other guy stared at me for a while, probably finally noticing my skirt, boots, and how the fact that I actually wasn't physically shaped as a guy (though my shirt was black and had pockets on the chest area so it wasn't that apparent)
'Uhn...Nevermind'
I turned away still dumbfounded. Wao. It was truly hilarious. I asked 小恩 whether I should dress like a guy then. He gave me a look that clearly stated it wasn't a good idea. Oh well.
I really liked this song (to the point I almost cried at one part of the MV where the dad's eating alone after the mom and daughter move out). It's really really good =) Here's the lyrics (thanks to Tonykun):
Chinese Pronounciations: dui zhe ge shi jie ru guo ni you tai duo de bao yuan die dao le jiu bu gan ji xu wang qian zou wei shen me ren yao zhe me de cui ruo duo luo qing ni da kai dian shi kan kan duo shao ren wei sheng ming zai nu li yong gan de zou xia qu wo men shi bu shi gai zhi zu zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you
hai ji de ni shuo jia shi wei yi de cheng bao sui zhe dao xiang he liu ji xu ben pao wei wei xiao xiao shi hou de meng wo zhi dao bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao xiang jian de ge yao yong yuan de yi kao hui jia ba hui dao zui chu de mei hao
bu yao zhe me rong yi jiu xiang fang qi jiu xiang wo shuo de zhui bu dao de meng xiang huan ge meng bu jiu de liao wei zi ji de ren sheng xian yan shang se xian ba ai tu shang xi huan de yan se xiao yi ge ba gong cheng ming jiu bu shi mu di rang zi ji kuai le kuai le zhe cai jiao zuo yi yi tong niang de zhi fei ji xian zai zhong yu fei hui wo shou li
suo wei de na kuai le chi jiao zai tian li zhui qing ting zhui dao lei le tou zhai shui guo bei mi feng gei ding dao pa le shui zai tou xiao ne wo kao zhe dao cao ren chui zhe feng chang zhe ge shui zhao le o o wu hou ji ta zai chong ming zhong geng qing cui o o yang guang sa zai lu shang jiu bu pa xin sui zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you
hai ji de ni shuo jia shi wei yi de cheng bao sui zhe dao xiang he liu ji xu ben pao wei wei xiao xiao shi hou de meng wo zhi dao bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao xiang jian de ge yao yong yuan de yi ka hui jia ba hui dao zui chu de mei hao
hai ji de ni shuo jia shi wei yi de cheng bao sui zhe dao xiang he liu ji xu ben pao wei wei xiao xiao shi hou de meng wo zhi dao bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao xiang jian de ge yao yong yuan de yi kao hui jia ba hui dao zui chu de mei hao
English Translations: If you have too many grievances towards this world, Having fallen, you lose the courage to go on Why do people want to be so weak and fallen? Please turn on the television now and see for yourself So many people bravely fighting for their lives Shouldn’t we be content, Cherish all we have, even if we don’t possess them
I still remember you said home is your only castle Following the paddy fragrance, the flowing stream, I continued running Smile, I know the childhood dreams Don’t cry, let the fireflies take you away, escaping You will always find serenity in folk songs Go home, return to the sweet past
Don’t give up so easily, just like what I said, If the dream can’t be reached, then just follow another dream Add bright colours to your own life Paint LOVE in your favourite colourSmile, fame and success isn’t the aim Be happy. That is the whole meaning (Just like how) I finally found my lost childhood innocence
What is happiness? It’s chasing dragonflies in the fields barefooted till we’re exhausted Tried to steal fruits but suffered so much beestungs until i am scared. Who’s snickering (at me)? Leaning against the scarecrow, enjoying the wind, singing songs till I fall asleep Oh~ Oh~ In the afternoon, the guitar chords sound more crisp amidst the cries of the insects Oh~ Oh~ The sunlight shines on the road so there’s no need to fear a heartbreak Cherish everything, even if we don’t possess them
I still remember you said home is your only castle Following the paddy fragrance, the flowing stream, I continued running Smile, I know the childhood dreams Don’t cry, let the fireflies take you away, escaping You will always find serenity in folk songs Go home, return to the sweet past
I still remember you said home is your only castle Following the paddy fragrance, the flowing stream, I continued running Smile, I know the childhood dreams Don’t cry, let the fireflies take you away, escaping You will always find serenity in folk songs Go home, return to the sweet past
I was a bit surprised to hear 小愷say that I've become more open--in 3 months. Is it really the hairstyle? I've cut my hair in 6th and 8th and I was still emo then. Wao, how on earth did a punk (can't imagine him with spiked hair, but glad he doesn't take drugs) and a emo become friends? My life is strange.
I've personally always found him pretty...childish. Not in a negative way. Not immature either. He's pretty corrupted actually. Further corruption would probably be by reading yaoi manga (which I refuse to touch). It's just his personality. But then again, he's a new student and since he's been moving around a lot, his personality changes to adapt to the new enviroment. I don't know whether his current personality is real or not, but is sems to genuine it'd be hard to create and seem so realistic.
From what I know, he seems to die whenever he sleeps for less than 7 hours. On the hilarious part, I choked with laughter when he replied to my question on whether he gets nightmares the nights I give him a 'Good night and sweet dreams'. He replied with a 'I dream of you and I wake up screaming'. Rofl. First time someone would dream of me and actually wake up shrieking in fright. Yes, I know it's a joke, but it's really amusing.
Unfortunately, ever since 小愷 mentioned the fact that he moved around a lot, I wonder when he's going to leave again. It's not really a good idea to come at 9th and leave before high school graduation, and I really hope he's going to stay. It's rare to find a friend as interesting and entertaining as he is (no seriously, I really do get a bit bored when he's not around O.o), and I doubt it's just because he's a new student (maybe, I dunno). He's just rather fun to be with. If you're reading this, hah! Get uncomfortable right now~xD
In addition to everything, one of the most shocking thing was 小珍suddenly going out with 大Z when they'd just started meeting each other last Saturday. I know they've known each other before, but I'm just really surprised and all. Eeek. 9th grader and 11th grade! Not that ages matter the least bit, but the pairing was so surprising I didn't catch it until she told me she liked him. Now they're in a relationship and I'm just...eeked.
Happy talk now for a few sentences. RO2 is AWSOME =D The game is just terrific and the graphics are stunning. I'm only a level 5 Recruit, but I'll catch up! I have got to! If you play EuphRO2, you can sometimes find me in n00blands (Adventure's Training Grounds) shooting at the Unripe Pukuis. My pc's called Cissnei (brown bun on head, want to get a hat tho), though I might use Gun once Tainted (小璇) goes on.
I don't feel like talking too much about myself because it's concieted to do so, but I just wanted to get down that it's not that I don't have an interest in 小鈞anymore...I'm more of stuck between not knowing who I like. I think I'm actually stuck between two people and can't choose, though since this blog's public, I'm not going to mention who. I'm not sure about anything really related to this love-ish topic so I'm just going to end here.
Well, since 小璇gets emails of my updates on my blog (this was such a blunt post =.=) and I don't want her to get the wrong idea of my first subject here, I'll wrap this up right now with no ribbons (ribons next time!)
