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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

今日は...

今日は私はとても疲れたですよ!

我最後還是回來這裡ㄟ...
看來應為直有Tainted知道這裡還是比較好
我才有辦法說出自己理的真話.
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September 2009
I'm finally free after 9 months. I'm finally so free. It feels so good. Free. Free. Free. I found out a little too late into it that I realized I hate love. Relationships scared me. I didn't want to be like all those people out there obsessed and into drama all because of love. I can't be with someone who I feel doesn't care about me. I can't be someone who I feel disgust and anger towards. I can't be with someone who hurts me so constantly with his overwhelming selfishness. So I decided that being single was better. It was so much more free.

However, before I could spread my wings and fly farther into the sky, I caught a glimpse of another angel, and my heart plummeted to the ground again. At least. At least one-sided love will never be returned. I won't be caged again. That I know he will keep. Because he won't lie to me. This will be the fourth year. No. The fifth.

December 2009/January 2010
What the hell is so interesting about a new year? It's a new year closer towards the point where we really mess ourselves up. So what if people are setting stuff into the sky? Look beyond those flashing colors. They're really just messing the sky up. A night after fireworks is just a sky that's really gone wrong. All that smoke is just disgusting. I don't see why anyone would want to look at it.

January 2009
I'm becoming more sensitive again.. Just a single action, and I'm hurt. Things irritate me more, and I feel stressed from the load I have. The load of work. I had a Honors Geometry quiz two days ago that I bombed. Today I had a Western Studies quiz about social contracts and a Health Project on ecstasy that's due tomorrow. Tomorrow, I have to make up for a Japanese test I missed on Friday. I have a Spanish quiz tomorrow. And on Friday, I have to start working on a new Health Project about debating. I have three days of math homework to do--tonight. I am about to go crazyyyyy *roars*

I like my new blog template :)

-- Whitesimplicity

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